Fat. Thin. Obese. Skinny. Mobese. Slim.
Hi. Welcome. I am 24, a new mum, and over weight.
This is my first blog, and for the first time in my life, here I am going to be completely honest about my weight, what I eat, and my weight issues.
So...I suppose the first thing you need to know is I have been on a diet, on and off, since I was 13.
I was a normal sized kid, and never had any trouble clearing my plate.
I think the problems started when I was a teenager, my mum and dad used to work long,irregular hours then, and we all ate at different times. I was always the first one home, so i would grab something to eat, like beans on toast, or a sandwich and crisps. Then i would eat again when my mum and dad got home. Curry, Chips, Chinese, KFC,Pub lunch, anything bad for you, we ate.
I met my now husband, when i was 16 and just sitting my GCSE's. He introduced me to a whole new world. He was 19 at the time, and he introduced me to a whole new world. Suddenly, i was going to the pub on friday and saturday nights. I had a saturday job at cooplands, and whilst there i would stuff my face with sausage rolls, and cakes and ginger bread men. At this time, i wasn't fat. But, looking back now, this is where it started. I became a binge eater, starving myself some days, and eating everything and anything the next few.
I am an emotional eater. When I'm happy-i eat. When I'm sad-i eat. Any kind of emotion, food is what i go for. Crap food too. Crisps. Take aways. Chocolate. Especially chocolate. I have some messed up connection with food, and i am on a journey to break this emotional link to food.
About 14 months ago, i reached 14 stone, and a size 16/18. I am quite tall, I'm 5"7, but still, this is not a good weight to be. So, i joined Slimming world. i was doing well, and lost about 1/2 a stone in 3 weeks, but suddenly, the weight seemed to be coming off slower, even though i was following the plan. I was pregnant! So...for the first few months, i completely lost my appetite, and i started being really sick, so i actually lost weight. But when i stopped being sick at around 5 months, all i wanted was food. Junk food. At my heaviest during my pregnancy, i was tipping the scales at a massive 18 stone 4lbs, and a size 22.
I promised myself, that after i'd had the baby, i would give myself some time to enjoy being a mum, and then address my weight issues.
Now, my baby boy is 4 and a half months old, and i weigh 16 stone 8 1/2 lbs.
I am a size 20. I began eating sensibily, and managed to lose a bit of weight by myself, but not in the right way. I wouldn't eat all day, then gorge on curry or chinese, followed by crisps, big blocks of chocolate, and unlimited amounts of white toast.
So, a few weeks ago, i did something i have done many times before...I joined Slimming World. Obviously, i did it before i found out i was pregnant, and i had done it a couple of times before to lose a stone or so, then packed it. This time, i want it to be different.I want this to be the last time i have to address my weight. I don't want to shop in the "fat lass" section any more, or worry about keeping my belly sucked in.
In my first week, i lost 3lbs.
In my second week, i lost 2 lbs.
I would like to point out, at this stage, i wasn't completely in the zone, and finding it hard to eat properly and cook from scratch with a baby.
then, it was my birthday. I indulged on my birthday, and just carried on. I missed group, but decided that for my own sanity, i needed to return. I want my son to have a happy, healthy mummy that does fun things with him, not who sits been miserable because she's over weight.
So, i returned to Slimming world. No body judged me for missing a week. I handed over my money, and stepped on those dreaded scales...I had gained 5lbs. In just under a week, i had gained the weight i had tried so hard to lose, in 2 weeks. enough was enough.
i went home, did an online shop, and stuck to it. I got weighed on Monday at my group, and i had lost 4.5 lbs. I couldn't believe it! to lose 4 1/2 lbs in a week where i'd stuck to the plan, but knew i could have followed it better! It set me straight. Now, i am determined to shift some more weight.
I hope you haven't got to bored reading this, i just thought i would give you a bit of a back story of my life, before i start posting properly.
Please, follow my blog. Whether your trying to lose weight yourself, or just a bit nosey. I will be honest about my weight struggles, and hopefully you will provide me with a little extra support as i embark upon this journey.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.
Kiki. xkx
